“We did not change as we grew older; we just became more clearly ourselves.”

 Lynn Hall

Cindy, 1966, aged 2.

As far back as I can remember I felt myself apart from things; with a sense of looking on at life as a chronicler of time and events. There was always a subconscious I will recall this one day; every colour, sound and scent. Even now, there is a ghostly doppelganger me, watching behind me as I go about my day, pressing my actions into memory like dried rose petals in a journal.

I’m thinking about the novel I am currently reading; where a character has Alzheimer’s disease and is slowly losing all memory of her past. What a brutal robber the illness is! I think. And then I wonder; does it really matter, after all, she’s blissfully unaware?


15 Comments Add yours

    1. theonlycin says:

      Yes it is Jingle 🙂

  1. supagran says:

    I think it’s worse for the people around the suffer myself, we watched my mother-in-law disappear, horrid disease.

  2. nrhatch says:

    You’ve reminded me of a quote I included in A Writer’s Life For Me:

    There is only one trait that marks the writer. He is always watching. It’s a kind of trick of the mind and he is born with it. ~ Morley Callahan


    There’s a wonderful book/movie about Iris Murdach (writer) and her losing battle with Alzheimer’s ~ IRIS


    1. theonlycin says:

      Good quote, good movie Nancy 🙂

  3. brian says:

    intersted in which book you are reading…i read Still Alice a month or so ago…it was brilliant…and i can relate to teh feeling of being a chronicler…

    1. theonlycin says:

      Yes Brian, same book.

  4. The movie Iris about Iris Murdoch was the scariest movie I ever saw. She was aware (like others I know) that her mind was going, It is extremely scary for them,

    I was so sad as I loved her writing

    1. theonlycin says:

      Very sad movie, her husband’s care and concern were heartbreaking to witness.

  5. MissChris says:

    Very scary and sad disease – I have seen it’s effect on those family members who have to cope with it.

    1. theonlycin says:

      I can’t even begin to imagine.

  6. adeeyoyo says:

    It seems that people suffering from AD do have flashes of reality where they realise something isn’t right – and that is really the cruel part of the disease. Love the quote – it’s so true!

  7. Tokeloshe says:

    Lovely photo and excellent as always!

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